....such a david! D: <3
yes. THAT is a pc! i'm so astonished by it's small size and whole appearance! oO (it is about 20cm high)
and it is so fast. and so awesome! <3 i call him....david :P
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Have been at the shelter today and donated Ashati's scratching tree, brought a big box of food and snacks as gift, and spent some time cuddling with the cats, who need a lot of love and attention. 
It really felt so good to help a little. The people there were also very nice and happy about the donations. :) 
Mausi (upper photo) and Tom (photo below). 
<3
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Dear Furries,
if you decide to have sex in your fursuits, and if you decide to film yourself while doing so, and if you then decide to put your videos publically on the internet, maybe even under your regular nickname that anyone can google, please ...
- Do not take that same fursuit out to the streets to play with the children, people will google up your nickname, find sex videos besides pictures of you attracting children, and they WILL jump to conclusions concerning your motivation.
- Do not go to your favorite amusement park (I'll call it "Mouseland" for google's sake) wearing that same fursuit on halloween. NEVER EVER!
- Do not complain about the media getting the wrong idea. Because of you, it's NO LONGER the wrong idea. You define what we are, because "we" includes "you".
- Do not complain about being persecuted when people are suddenly all grossed me out, when they got hugged by a fursuiter, and later find out that the costume parts you touched them with were covered in jizz just a week before.
Holy shit, furries, you can do in your private bedrooms whatever you want. So do I. We all have our kinks, and so does the average guy next door. But LEARN SOME COMMON SENSE !!!!!!! Because no amount of trying to "set the record straight" or telling people how "misunderstood" we are can fix the damage you're doing to our community.
And, excuse me for getting personal here, but it's my personal LJ: The damage you're doing to my work. I've been devoting a large part of my life to furry fandom, and I've got a growing doubts if it's going to be worth the pain in the future, if a growing part of the community that I originally felt appointed to SUPPORT, suddenly starts negating what I love to do.
Thank you for listening to this public service announcement.
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![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) nachtfuchs surprised me with a wonderful candlelight-cheese-raclette dinner this week - fresh bread, fresh butter, wine, tasty cheese and ham! <3 That lifted me up, thank you for the awesome surprise! *hugs*
  
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Furries in a French nightclub!
Video out now!
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Another furry Simpsons episode! :)
From the episode "Love Springfieldian Style".
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Today I got a message that Basil, the fox I sponsored at the Wolf Park, has deceased. Being very old for a fox, 13 or 14 years, it was expected, though still a sad thing.
Immediately as I first saw photos of him, I was entranced by him. As a dilute red fox, his fur was almost completely white.
Unfortunately, I never had the chance to see him in real life, as the US isn't round the corner from here. Still, I'll remember him by the many pictures of him that I have received over time, him doing silly things (but mostly being lazy)
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(crossposted to furry_media)
We've been to a fursuit outing last saturday, and coincidentally met a reporter from Der Express who instantly showed interest and interviewed me and Eisbaer about the people in costumes.
Now this is a yellow press / tabloid newspaper, which sort of goes hand in hand with Daily Mail, The Sun, or any other kind of sensationalist / News Corp. release, so we were rather wary what to say and what to keep to ourselves. The situation was too spontaneous for a in-depth interview anyway.
Turns out that the article is wrong in most ways... but still good, and in some ways, funny:
Here is the translation of the text:
"Whoops, what strange kind of critters are here?" must have been the thoughts of huskylady "Lacy" as she was "attacked" and perduaded for a dance by a horde of giant plush animals.
The people behind the colored animal costumes are a group of Dutch people from Rotterdam and Nijmwegen. "We made the outfits ourselves after we've been on a vacation in Australia last year. There, it has become a tradition to prowl, disguised as plush animal", so the visitors.
(subtext) Husky Lacy, surrounded by Dutch people in disguise.
Ironically, of all the facts we gave her, only the name and gender of the husky are correct. She mistook USA with Australia, and forgot the fact that only half of the group were Dutch. But hey, it could've been much, much, MUCH worse.
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Last Saturday codydawgy organised a fursuit outing. Now these outings are always fun, but this one was special in a way... especially since a lot of coincidences have happened that nobody would believe normally.
The fuzzy group
( Moar! )
On another note: The Glazart video is done, release is soon. :)
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| User: | culpeo_fox |
| Date: | 2009-12-14 14:40 |
| Subject: | a new one |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  blah | | Music: | babbling people |
went to the professional yesterday regarding my pc problems (thank god that this guy is a close friend of my family, so i got some "extras" in service. : P ).
so here's the scoop:
it was possible to save most of my files - egad. you have no idea how relieved i was when i saw this.
nonetheless. my old pc was ready for the junkyard. since a pc is necessary for my work, i was forced to buy a new one, plus an external hard disk drive (always wanted to buy such a thing and never had the chance to before.).
400 Euro in total. and i'm skinned again. XD (well, as good as. such a pity, because a few days (and weeks) before, i had enough money to feel a bit like scrooge mcduck - such an awesome feeling D: (<---sounds awefully money-grubbing, but hey ;) )
thanks to all, who wanted to leave an old pc to me - unfortunately i saw most of those messages too late. on the other hand, a new pc is something that was really needed.
as matters now stand, i will be online at home next saturday again.
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Update: All calendars are taken, thank you very much! :)
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Need a last minute Christmas present? As expected, I now still have 8 calendars of my "Twilight Wolves" calendars (2010) left, due to cancellations or missing feedback. So here is your chance now:
Preview:
http://www.weuukoo.com/img/twilight-wolves_calendar-2010.jpg
Price: 38$ per calendar - insured world wide shipping costs (to any country) are already included in price
Size: DIN A4 / 11.7 x 8.3 inches (landscape format)
Pages: 12 pages + 1 cover, wire-0 binding, 170g/qm paper
Important info:
1. I take Paypal payments (or Überweisung in Germany) ONLY.
2. I would love to ship them before xmas (international shipping usually takes about 6-10 days, within Europe / Germany usually about 1-3 days).
3. If you want one, please send me an email:
tanidareal@gmail.com
First come, first served. Thank you very much for your interest! :)
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.... I actually wanted to make an interesting update today, considering Death and the other entities, coming up with a few awesome sketches of new designs and interesting information about them... but then after a while I realized that I am just not content with their current designs, and find myself questioning their characters all the time.
I find it very difficult to come up with a satisfying and good design for such strong characters like the personifcation of Death or Life. Designs and depictions of them have existed for centuries in various forms and different cultures, there is so much influence and yet I want to come up with something individual and new...
... I do not want to draw Death as the typical skeletonized Grim Reaper, because I think in the story of Post Mortem it wouldn't work... there has to be a character that fits into the strange and weird world of PM and is yet a believable representation of the entity of Death.
I do like the idea of psychopomps, which are guiding entities, and do not rip a "soul" of the moribund body, but rather guide it to an afterlife. - Mythical creatures who are benevolent and caring, and do not mean harm to the living.
On the other hand, there is much potential in legends like the one of the breton incarnation of Death, L'ankou, a spirit who is always reincarnated in the first person who dies in a new year, a spirit who wanders through the lands, guards the dead and is a horrible omen for dying...
I am curious... if you could imagine a personification of Death, how would you picture it? How would it look? How would it speak? In which way would it appear? I am completely stuck in my inability to choose a proper design for Death that I cannot really imagine anything...
I would be thankful for some input. :)
Best regards,
Caboodle
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....died. damn it.
hope that my files and stuff still can be saved.
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Sitting next to a candle, crying, I cannot express what it means to me... All those loving memory pictures will find a place next to Ashati's urn, and forever in my heart.
Thank you so incredibly much to culpeo_fox (1), zuribonn (2), CheetagonZita (3) and bentak_aresh (Dragony) (4) for those loving memories! *hugs tight*
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... GO!
Tickets: Check.
Rental Car: Check.
Hotel Room: Check.
Days off work: Check.
One thing is going to be different this year: After feeling some slight burn-out effect throughout 2009, I decided to stop DJing at some cons in 2010, and in light of some events of the past, FC has won the lottery! However, I've still applied to Anthrocon, so you might still see me there. Maybe even Megaplex. The wizards of the events will decide. :)
I also noticed that my credit card was affected by the chaos that the Fairmont caused, but before I could even act, they noticed it and fixed that issue. No worries there. :)
Well and long needed break, here I come!
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Thank you to every single one of you for your support and comments, this filled me with love and gratitude to be blessed with such friends! *hugs*
And I received three absolutely heartwarming, wonderful commemorative pictures for Ashati and me. I cannot say how much this means to me... I have to cry each time I look at them, it means so incredibly much to me. This is the most wonderful, caring gifts ever.
Thank you SO MUCH keihound (1), foxwolf (2) and runoratsu (3) for those wonderful gifts, it will always be in my heart! *tight hugs*
<3
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As promised, here's a short report what happened that night before Ashati found peace. I want to share this one more time before I want to bury these emotions in my mind.
When I got back home on Sunday night, everything was still fine. Ashati was scratching at the doormat, and came with me to bed, lying on my belly, purring. I took one (last) photo of her for Twitter... 1 or 2 minutes after that she had the first seizure.
She was still lying on my belly, shaking, wildly twitching and struggling with incredible force, crying, fluid running out of her mouth and eye. I was holding her tight, talking to her that I'm there. It took about 20-30 seconds. Afterwards she was all exhausted and disorientated. She walked through the flat, not wanting to stop, hit walls, still tried to eat and go to her toilet, then laid down on the floor. I took her to bed several times, but she did not want to stay. I talked to the animal hospital (phone), but I already knew there was nothing I could do about those seizures... except releasing her. And I did not want to do that in any random hospital, but at our vet, who knew her and who's very kind, and who was the one and only reason why we still had those 6 weeks together since the first stroke.
One 1 later, I heard her in the kitchen when she had the second seizure. It was almost worse than before. It was so incredibly brutal for that little body, the floor was all wet afterwards. I held her tight, and took her to bed with me afterwards. This time she stayed, lying in my arm next to me. I stayed up all night to see that she stays there. At 3am, she had a third stroke... next to me in bed. I petted her all the time and talked to her.
Lying there, counting the hours until our vet opened. In the morning, at about 7am, she had a fourth seizure. She also wetted the bed during the seizure. She was already that exhausted that she couldn't walk or move any more. I took her in my arms, placed her on my chest, where she finally relaxed a little and seemed to sleep a little, nose on my chest. I talked to her all the time, she moved out a paw and touched my face and gave me a weak headrub... those are the moments when you don't know how not to die yourself...
At 8:30 I headed to the vet. On our way there, she had a fifth seizure in her box. The vet immediately called us in. I trust him blindly, as he always gives animals a chance as long as there's the slightest hope. But he immediately said that there is no hope that this will get better again (as she already got all medication that could possibly help preventing a seizure, and it didn't help), Ashati also didn't had any pupil reactions any more, just lying there, all wet and at the end of her strength. He gave her the first injection, anesthesia. I took her on my arms and went to a little room next door. Holding her in my arms against my chest and heartbeat, talking to her all the time, until she faded away, sleeping... softly snoring like she used to do in the past. Sitting there with Ashati in my arms, until the vet came. Back to the examination room. Lights were turned off, just a candle burning. I put her on the table where she got the final injection that sent her to peace. Now she is free again... no pain, no blindness, just love. I know you will be guided by my brother.
I left her at the vet, arranging that she will be picked up to get a single cremation, just her, and sending back her ashes to me. I chose a cinerary urn with a sun symbol for her, I think it fits for her, my little sunshine... She will be back home next week.
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I am very thankful that I was able to be with you, during that night, until the very last moment, it's like you waited for me to come home for it to happen, to let me take that one last photo of you... You weren't alone, I was with you, I did anything possible to care for you (medication), we had the chance to say goodbye and still had 6 wonderful weeks of love together, there are no doubts any more if it was the right decision, 5 seizures were a clear sign that it was time (and I finally know that it was really a stroke, not just assumptions), and finally - it happened rather quickly (only 9 hours from the first seizure until the release). I do know even that last journey, inevitable, was a gift to both of us.
My love, my little angel... I will always love you with all my heart. I can feel your presence, your spirit is with me in my heart, wherever I go. Thank you for all the love you gave me. We will always be together.
I love you...
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Eurofurence 16 Teaser from BigBlueFox on Vimeo.
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... now also on Vimeo:
Eurofurence 16 Teaser from BigBlueFox on Vimeo.
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